paying closer attention…

“therefore we must pay much closer attention to what we have heard, lest we drift away from it.” Hebrews 2:1

whoa. it feels like it has been a really long time since my keys hit the keyboard, and it is both refreshing and exciting to have an opportunity to share with you all what the Lord is doing at kamp right now!  As I am writing it is currently day four which means one thing for us at kamp- Crosstalk!  Tonight every camper, staff person, and kaleo (incredible people that bring the kids to kamp) will see a re-enactment of the crucifixion of  Jesus. After four years of kamp, and twelve years of knowing Christ as my Savior and Lord, this night is fresher than ever.  Since Africa the Lord has just softened my heart in an entirely new way to the incredible grace it is just that we simply get to know Him, get to have a intimate relationship with Him, and the price that He paid to make that possible.  The curtain being torn in two from top to bottom will never again be verses that I can skim read or jump over- Jesus made a way, Jesus is the way! …the kids are so fun this week.  It is a really small group so it’s really awesome to get solid intentional time with a lot of the girl kampers, and know a lot of them by name.  A lot of the kids are new to kamp, and we love that because that means more and more opportunities to share the Gospel, to love them with His love, and remind them continually of their purpose in Him.  So beautiful to me that the Lord takes what is so broken in this world and uses it for His own glory, and by His grace uses what is shattered to draw His own to Himself.  I am often moved to tears as I consider what Jesus sees when He looks at this place, at these kids, and thier hearts.  So many times it is so easy to just see a kid externally and jump so quick to conclusions without pausing for a second and really asking our Savior what He sees, and truly being led by the Spirit into incredible opportunities to extend the love of Jesus….the Lord uses these kids every year to make my heart beat a little faster, and teach me more about Himself…I am so thankful and blown away by His faithfulness and grace in this…As for prayer please please cover us in prayer tonight as we share the true and full Gospel with these kids straight from His Word! Pray for open hearts, and for God to do what only He can in this place.  Pray for true conversion, wide open hearts, and transformed minds, as well as restored and reconciled lives.  We will celebrate tonight as Heaven does!  Continue to lift up our staff that is running so hard unto Jesus- it’s a hot hot summer, and they are going so hard unto Him.  We pray to live Colossians 3:23 in EVERYTHING we do. it’s all by His grace.  Pray that our staff will remain unified together on the frontline- fighting only with the Sword He has given us- His Word- and resting in His Victory!  So thankful that this is all by His Spirit living in us, and truly has nothing to do with us and everything to do with Him! John 15:5.  Please pray that Jesus alone is exatled in this place, and that kids leave here never the same because of what God alone has done.  I truly roll out of bed every morning believing that kids will be forever changed by Jesus, families will be forever changed by Jesus, and with that spread the hearts of the cities in our country will be forever changed by Jesus- NOTHING is too hard for Him.  Thanks for praying with us believing.  Having full faith in the only One worthy.  Also- thanks for continuing to lift up my family- mom & dad are doing awesome, and will be leaving on a three week motorcyle trip to Canada in a few days! Please pray with me that they just have an incredible time enjoying God in His creation, and nature and that they get to see Him in every part of their trip.  They work so hard, and I’m so excited for them to have this sweet time together.  Please also pray for their safety and that they will make it back to good ole Baxter safely at the end of June. So thankful for incredible parents! …Africa still is covering so much of my heart, I will never forget the way their hands felt in mine, the way they smile at the smallest things, and the way Jesus in that place and in all places is greater than every circumstance imaginable.  A sweet sweet friend of the family that I blogged about while I was there, Lucy, has passed away and we rejoice today knowing she is with Jesus, never again to experience the pain and suffering she did on this side of glory.  Please pray with me for her children, and the children of her children as well as the Starlings who continue to be blessed with an incredible ministry with them.  thank you thank you thank you for covering Nigeria in prayer.  Believing that the Lord will continue to transform that place by His grace.  So thankful for the Starling family on the frontline over there.  Lastly please be in prayer for what ‘s next after kamp. Really praying through the process of the next step to take since graduating from the Kanakuk Institute in April.  I’ll be moving to Waco, TX in August, and am still really praying through grad schools/ ministries/ and church opportunities there.  Honestly I just want Jesus to be lifted up, and want to live in a way that honors and glorifies Him.  My heart is captivated, and it is making more and more sense daily of why there is nothing else out there that is worth pursuing whole heartily except Him.  My heart beats so fast to really get to sit and listen to girls, and have opportunities to disciple them and teach them Truth.  I’ve prayed about Biblical counseling for a long time, and this still is a direction I am very excited about going in, just trusting Him with all the logisitics in the mean time. He is faithful. We get to trust in Him. Isaiah 26:3-4.  Thanks so much for praying with me, and for me, I cannot tell you how much it means or the blessing that it truly is.  Please please email/ call/ text / facebook me things I can be praying for you! I want to join hands with you, too! thanks for lifting up what Jesus is doing here at kamp, my sweet family and future, and these precious kids the Lord sends through the gates each week.  I love you dearly- and am so thankful I get to do life with you. By His grace.  & for His glory!  As I sit here in the upstairs office with sweat pouring down, and my sticky Bible, I could not be more thankful for the opportunities He gives us to share in what He is doing here.  Pray that today you are rejoicing in who Jesus is, and walking confidently & humbly in who He says we are.  One of our kampers today told our director that she knows Jesus–> and that they are similar in that they both know what it’s like to be out of place.  Her family was misplaced after hurricane Katrina hit New Orleans, and she said that Jesus understands because He too went where He didn’t belong in coming to earth for us.  Tears hit our eyes as we heard this story–by His grace, by His grace, by His grace!  Eyes are being opened, and kids really will never be the same. I pray today no matter how long it has been since the first time your eyes were opened to Jesus as Savior and Lord you take a minute to just sit and remember His saving grace, His new mercy, the wounds that healed us, the Cross that reconciled us to the Father, the love that is extended to us forever that is unconditional and eternal, and the Spirit that now dwells within us.  He is so so so good.  Thankful for each of you, and you taking the time out to read this heart ramble.  Again, cannot thank you enough for praying & will update later this week, with pictures, poems, prayer requests, and hopefully a video or two! Please let me know how to be praying for you! Hebrews 10:19-25!          In His Grace. Stef


ps) watched one of my best friends get married last night, and was so reminded of Jesus and the Church. So thankful today that He is so willing and chooses to call us His Bride!  Rest in Him today! He is greater & He wins. you are loved.


One response to “paying closer attention…

  1. loved reading this and i prayed for you and your requests tonight 🙂 love you and SO EXCITED to see you inside those gates in 2 weeks!

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